Oh Father how my heart breaks!
the tears i watch them fall
from eyes that constantly praise You
the pained heart breaking
that worships You always

What words oh Lord do I utter
to any comfort may I lead them
help me my King to help them
as they have no control
what their children do


 You know father that my desire is to lift You up
I long only to guide the hurting to You
my only breath is a map with words
marking the narrow path to You
past the torn veil into Your pressence

Fullness of Joy is found there with You
Even through the hardest of trial
the darkest of night and blinding water
use me to guide them Lord
as my life lifts Your son Jesus up

Hold me Lord Cover me

No hand LORD can ever touch me as YOU do
many nights my tears YOU alone have seen
Holding tight my heart peices
mending them together

Oh GOD I need YOUR touch tonight
Father I hold on to what YOU have held out
YOUR hand of healing
My eyes they run with the salty sea overflowing

Heavy am I with emotion
questions without answers, I already know
I know YOU can not tell me all things
so I hold on to YOUR faithfulness

Come in the clouds of my mind tonight GOD
My lying heart speaks of the unfair world
while my mind reasons there is a reason in it all
my spirit turns from both to lay my head on YOUR knee

Hold me LORD cover me
I run to YOUR embrace, protection
I stay close to YOU in the secret of the stairs
I lay at YOUR feet and find comfort

I will rest and wake to serve YOU
knowing that all is in YOUR hands calms me
it removes all doubt and questions
I will lift my eyes and fix them on YOU LORD

Repentant

Oh Father, the door stood open
Jesus You held out Your hand
Holy Spirit a warning You alarmed
visual, consideration, action, birth - sin

Father come to my aid
forgive me again
I am not worthy of Your Sons blood
But Your grace pours it on me anyway

Father consider my sad existence
this world of flesh in which i find my abode

how it fights me at every turn
Its desire like a dog after the scent of a female

Consider, my Creator, my weak and poor state
that there is no good in me but You
I long for You to be all thats in me
help me overcome as i stand up again

Oh Jesus I know Your are patient and kind
You hold my hand as i rise to You
through true repentance I come
A hard lesson learned indeed
from even the appearance of evil flee!

Physical Pain

My God who sits in heaven
Who rules in righteousness and truth
By the power of His word I was made
My lips continually praise Your name
For You are marvelous and wonderful

Though my flesh cries and weeps
I will press on and not fear tomorrow
Though pain grips my chest
I will glory in the privilege to shine
For in such a time I can glorify Jesus

Speaking confidence in Him
Speaking belief and faith in His will

Without complaint, without anger
But by love and the power of Gods hand
When I am chosen to be tested
Will I let it slip from me
Never! Be it a time to cling to God

To show my trust is in who He is
In the rough and the soft meadows
And I shall run fully out into the storm
When it rises on the horizon
For then it is my turn to ride strong winds
In this I will mount on eagles wings
And fly higher than I could before
Oh such mystery it is to me!

Thru pain we grow and in weakness He is strongest
When my body is sorely pained and weak
Ands as sleep eludes me, hiding in the shadows
That Your Spirit calls to my spirit
And sustains me as if I were first awakened
My spirit at peace, content and full of Joy

When my mind is clouded
And my own thoughts are a mystery to me
Your Spirit, oh God speaks out for me
And calls on my behalf
Interceding and speaking to the Father
The very things that are needed

In these day I will grow deeper with Him
He will meet me at the mountain top when I arrive
And dine with me at the table He prepared
He will look at the enemy and send him away
For in all things did I continue to praise Gods name

Oh joy and happiness
To know such provision has been made for me
The Spirit that lives within me
The same Spirit that raised Christ from the dead
The Spirit that bears witness for who I am in Christ
Calls out for my deliverance and rescue
Speaking all that I need both day and night.


originally writen
3/14/07